So the kids have grown and they say empty nesters are normal. Quietness is normal. Depression is normal. Then they come with their kids is normal. I don’t know what is normal.
Sleeping in is supposed to happen but I wait to see it. I get less sleep now kids are gone. Worrying what they are doing, are they ok? I thought it was me but I’ve talk to several moms. Youngest is off to college and I’m constantly worrying about her. Hoping she’s not getting into the party life, and being safe at night when most of her classes are.
I think back on the years I had to play mom and dad, because father only came to see children on Holidays. It became so surreal when the kids started calling him the holiday daddy. The struggles of being a single mom are real.
Then I look back and I did the best I knew how. But no one told me about the empty nest and what to do next. Is this where middle age crises sit in. Is there a book or guide I go by. Maybe a vacation, or trip some where or even a cruise, then I look back and no one is hanging to the shirt tail. Where did they all go?